July 26, 2025
So… today is my birthday, and though it’s a day like any other, it’s not.
Today I turned 65 and though I am the same person I was yesterday, I feel as if I’ve crossed an invisible boundary, a move from the middle of life and moving towards it’s final part of the journey.
“Final”, that’s a scary word, an event coming to its eventual ending. Completely stupid, yet it makes me a bit sad on a day that I am supposed to be celebrating.
When I think about it, I’ve become a member of a group in society that is somehow a thing that classifies you as “less”… a member of the geriatric club, I am officially a senior citizen.
Suddenly, I’m old.
Most of my life I’ve had a mindset of naturally feeling like I was in my 20’s and even yesterday it was like that in my head, so what snapped between the time my head hit the pillow and this moment a few hours later? I turned a year over and crossed this threshold into old age.
I read somewhere a thing off the internet, it had to do something about reaching a point in life where the vast majority of one’s time here is now more behind instead of in front of them. That is exactly what I seem to be feeling today There is less in front of me than what is behind, a kind of sense of being incomplete.
I actually stopped this post and went to visit my BJJ dojo, not so much to practice as to touch base, get a dose of reality. That place is life’s water to me at times.
You see, the solution to this feeling is fairly easy. Just live. Live in peace, passion and give back. Give to your family, friends, give back to your community.
I still have much to give, I should’t have time to even have these feelings. Forgive me, I am ending the post here… and going to work on giving a little.